I have always accepted that I am not the forgiving kind but I find myself more forgiving than realized. Is it so hard to forgive someone? Is it so hard to accept people who have turned over a new leaf? To me, it doesn't really matter the reason why someone chose to turn over a new leaf so long that they have tried or succeeded in doing so. By forgiving doesn't really mean that I would forget because with the memory of an elephant, I can remember great details about things for yonks.
Tonight the lives of a couple of blokes could be ended prematurely by firing squad. I strongly believe that God has forgiven the duo but some humans have failed to see the point of forgiving them. Frankly I sometimes wonder why I bother to be good when people are only focussing on the bad aspects.
At work, my superior is hell bent on exposing my weaknesses. Instead of encouraging me in the teaching of English, I got pushed into teaching dance, Malay, science, Maths as well as English. There is a need to remind me that I am a Malaysian and so therefore I must be a champ in English, Chinese Mandarin, Malay and Maths. I came back in 2011 and I have yet to meet a Malaysian who is totally fluent in those three languages. Maybe my social circle is very small... And why would anyone with such great skills be found teaching little children at a local private kindergarten?
I still have hope. As I pray that my life would turn around soon, I pray too that something could be done to save the men from the bullets tonight.
