I love my new Apple Wireless Keyboard. It is just about the only thing that I am happy about lately. Everything else sucks.
Work, work, work...that is just about all that I do. Get up at 5 am to get ready from Monday to Friday. Get in the car at around 6 am even though the journey takes around 10 minutes only because I need to be there before 6:30 am for duties outside the classroom 3 days a week. I still turn up super early on the other days because all dutiful class teachers are early, on hand to take over parenting duties lovingly. I round up, teach and guide the kids until around 11:00 am. From then, I would sit with them until around as late as 1:00pm. Some parents avoiding parenting duties would turn up as late as 12:55 pm. Those poor children! My ride home would usually arrive at around 1:45 pm. When I get home, I get 45 minutes to eat and cool down before popping over to the other house to 'tutor' brats till around 5:15 pm. Forget 8 hour days, that doesn't exist for us poor folks here. After dinner, I still have to sit at the computer creating the lesson plan/s for the next day or two! I would consider myself lucky if I get to hit the bed by 9:30 pm. Oh, I only get paid for my work at the Kindergarten. I do not get paid for my afternoon gig. Filial piety is quite expensive. Who says Asian tax rates are lower?
I have a job lined up in KL but I don't really want it because I think that the work conditions would be just as bad or even worse. It seems like everything is set to teach me a lesson. It seems like a greater being seems to think that I need a lesson each day because I have been having it too good when I was in Australia.
It is hard living in a place where my work is not appreciated, where my contribution is not acknowleged and where my attempts at being friendly and fair are often not reciprocated. Why is everything so wrong? Am I such a loser? Can I get out of this nightmare? How long more do I have to be here? If God agrees with the X that I was a Bitch, do I deserve my current situation? I am almost at the point where I am asking for permission to take action. While I think that I ought to just accept the current state, I also strongly believe that my current situation is a waste or unhealthy. No matter how bitchy I was, I don't think God ever want to waste my talents.
So, what now? Could anyone help?
